A piece of work of the day 17

This is my latest ‘a piece of work of the day’ which hasn’t been done in a while.

There is no title, or, I’d name it ‘Mind mirroring’.

I have been a bit suffering from my psoriasis that had been reacting so hard on my both hands since this year.  I could not find what prompted me to get, but my hands got totally ugly in look, depressed me in heart, burned me in feel as they were inflammatory, hysterically (yes it is!) itchy, easy to break, and I could not sleep well.

I know it was only excuse but that kept me away from drawing because I could not focus on drawing enough and my epidermis became extremely thin and fragile once I got such a reaction.  I was suffering from manipulating my fingers to do something with.

Anyway, so my hands needed intensive care and I had to have observing myself in the closest manner.  And it actually inspired me to draw something like below for the first time.

I am very good at driving my delusion to expand, and it urged me to express something like ‘hands are mirroring your mind’ kind of things more or less.

I had rarely drawn hand(s), especially with pastels, and I was not done well this time hence, but I found it fun to do somehow and it is now added to my ‘to draw’ list for more try.  🙂

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Mumbling

I found of myself wanting to hang my art pieces in my place, to ‘exhibit’ them for the first time in years.

I have been doing drawing on going basis, but I had not thought of my works placing  somewhere visible, because, what’s more important for me to do the drawing is to get something I got in my head out in some form.  Once it was out, my interest moves on something next and I rarely come back to the old outcomes.  I don’t know hence what drives me wanting to ‘exhibit’ my stuff even at my place.

Something alters in me gradually somewhere in my mind, I guess.  I can not trace.

It must be a sign, a good sign, I guess, of being capable for self-acceptance.

Or it must be a good sign of building a form of self-confidence.

Or maybe neither.

Or maybe both.

Well, let’s stop thinking for now, and just go and get a small frame for it in stead…  🙂

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ブログを書くにあたって – Mixed language, mixed identity

Ok, so my first blog has been pushed.  I wrote it in Japanese as it is my native language.  But sometimes I feel English is easier or better to express what or how I have got in mind even my English is relatively poor particularly in vocabulary!

I am in Australia over ten years and I have been inspired and experienced tons of stuff, all of which are values.  But even now I am sometimes reminded that my root is Japan in many occasions I get in my day to day life.

On the other hand, once I take a holiday and go to Japan, I found myself be getting off from the manner or pattern that Japan / Japanese follow, and I see myself being fit and comfortable with Australia.

Once I had had felt that I have no home to go mostly due to such reason.

Now I rather enjoy this because I feel I am more free from any grouping or category (sort of..)  :-).

So I will run my blog in either language in responding to how I feel when I write.  🙂

 

 

私の初ブログ – A part of my exploring journey

今これを読んでくださっている方々へ。初めまして。私を見つけてくださりありがとうございます。

これまで、ブログは人様がつぶやきや思いを文章で表現したものを読むものという感覚でいました。ブログの形式は様々ですが、これまで私はブログに対して強い関心がありませんでした。自分の思うことを何もいちいち人に見てもらいたいものか、などと斜に構えていた部分もあります。

ところが、。。!

今こうして自らがブログをはじめるべく、キーボードと格闘しております。

はて、何故ブログを始めようと思ったのか?

ここが大きな疑問。

何を書きたいのか?

不明。。。(苦笑)

誰かに伝えたいのか?あるいは、みんなに知って欲しいのか?

。。。

これらの答えは何一つありませんが、ひとつ言えるのは、これは自己探求のひとつでやや実験的な試みであるということ。

私はこれまで自分を表現することをとても苦手としてきていました。何が好きで何が嫌いで今はどんな気分で何が得意で等をパッと伝えたり表現したりする事ができずにいました。

幼少期から絵が好きで、イラストや漫画を書いていたので、私自身は全く意識した事もありませんでしたが、おそらくその頃は絵を介して自己表現をしていたのかもしれません。でも大人になるにつれ絵を描く事からも疎遠になり、なんと縁あって40も半ばを過ぎてから再び少しづつ描き始めたという次第です。

文章力や表現力も稚拙ですし、長文も苦手ですがひとまず今、私の身近な趣味であり表現方法でもあるかもしれない写真や絵を通じて、自分を「出す」ということをテーマに始めて見たいと思います。

下は オーストラリアのバイロン・ベイ(Byron Bay, NSW, Australia) でのスナップです。海が、というより自然が本当に美しくていくら見ていても飽きませんでした。

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